The Start of Something New...

Like the rest of us, I live an imaginary life in my head. I think of all the things I want and envision it all. Being successful, having my own space, being financially stable, working the dream job, being unapologetically myself and being completely, utterly happy with that. A world where all my anxieties and fears no longer exist. A world where my insecurities no longer control me. A world where I don’t overthink every little aspect of my life. Not having to hold back. But of course, this is all fiction.

We come up with this world as a cushion to not face our fears. I know I am young and I have time, but what time do I really have? I don’t know if tomorrow will be the last day that I wake. I feel as if I have gotten nowhere with my life and I’m running out of time. Everyday I wake up already dreading the next, working for a job that I don’t love or feel passionate about. I am simply not content with who I have become and nothing I have done has been satisfactory.

So instead of sitting around and doing absolutely nothing but be the miserable being that I have become, I decided to make a….. thing? Not completely sure what to call this. A blog? Diary? I think “thing” will suffice considering I call everything “thing” so why the hell not?

I promise, this “thing” will be all over the damn place. From time to time, there will be something new to say or post about the one new thing I have finally done in order to socialize and feel like I have some kind of a life outside of my bedroom.

For now, hello, my name is Jai. Welcome to The Infinite Mind of Mine.